Though, I don't feel that today is my day. My head felt heavy, I had a fever, I got stressed from works, communications broke down, I travelled far to eat certain menu, but the menu is sold out. It did not feel good at all.
Timing.... I remember the Three Wise Monkeys "See no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil" accusing people to just be good. This post can be counted as the next episode of my previous post of being 30, being single, and being woman. It will be from another point of view. On the previous post I talk about what people should think about my situation right now. On this post, it can be an encouragement to keep moving forward.
Sometimes, a heavy feeling came to me when I saw my newsfeed full of friends getting married, my high school friends in her 29 years old already had 2 adorable kids, I saw many romantic posts, and so on. Things that other people got looking better. But, then I realize... perhaps they too get jealous seeing my posts. Hopping on the train after buying the ticket two days before, travelling to mountains, seas, and some foreign countries. Seeing me posting about how I spent my day off in a spa. Many of my married friends did say this to me "enjoy it while you are single...".This thought came across my mind as well 'they might have a great husband or boyfriend, but I have the coolest dad in the world where many does not have a beautiful relationship like I do with their fathers'
Thus, I dare to see no evil. What I got is as beautiful as what people got because we got different packages.
I decided to hear no evil. Good things will be revealed. Good will wins.
As many happy newsfeed about marriage and babies, I just heard a story of my married friend. She became stressed and depressed because she is not as free as before. I mean, of course once you married, you bound to more responsibility, but her movements are literally limited. She hasn't been out almost a year by herself or with her friends because her husband tells her so. Others just got divorced. There are indeed unhappy things behind what we thought is the happy ending. Good career, marriage, babies.
In the end, I choose to speak no evil because Life is unpredictable. Everything has good and bad. It depends on what you want to see. I let my intuition leads.
For now, I will work on what I got. I still have dreams. I still want to build a family. I know what I want to be, and don't want to be. I am telling the universe these, and let it does the magic.
Because... words are heard...
This morning, I just got a happy update from a friend who waits for her true love for almost 2 years. Finally, she got the answer she wants to hear. She decided to give up if the guy did not give her direct statement. Then the timing is come. I believe in her experince that you just need to trust the timing of your life. Make the right decisions and choices without giving up easily. Not letting fear over powered you. Not letting the evil pressed you.
Door closes, there are always other buildings to explore.
There is always a good smell on heavy rains and rainbows after that.
I am always blessed. There are always opened paths every time I want to go for another stage.