Since, it's going to beabout my loss...
and I hesitate to write about it frankly saying.
I put a lot of effort to write this post.
It's about almost 2 weeks after my mom's departure, and me and my dad are still adapting. We have been affected in a different way. I am left without any regrets while my papo still has remaining regrets which is very human.
We let her go peacefully but somewhat, somehow, our hearts aching when her glimpse of memory comes by. She is the closest. She was in our life, daily.
I still wish when I open the bed room door, she was sitting on her favorite couch and greeted me excitedly and we will ask her how she's doing, what she wanted to eat, or did she have a good sleep?
Saya pernah merasakan rindu akan seseorang hingga menitihkan air mata, dan ini lebih daripada itu. Rindu hingga hati seperti diperah. Perih. Karena tahu bahwa untuk bertemu dengan mambo kembali harus menyebrang ke dunia yang di mana letaknya, seperti apa bentuknya, tidak ada yang tahu.
Tetapi, kembali lagi... tidak ada penyesalan.
When the doctor confirmed that she's gone. I cried. But, my heart was filled with a warm cozy feeling. I believe... she's the one... that not allow any regret to enter my heart. She protects me...
Ya betul... ketika orang kekasihmu meninggal dunia... ia hanya akan menjadi malaikat pelindungmu... a very loyal guardian angel who will not leave you.. no matter what...
CVB
