Dear February

6It is the last two days of January, and I can say that 2016 was started roughly. There were too many gloomy days, bored than ever, un-motivated to the max, and I am sick again. On top of that, today and tomorrow, I have to attend education expo. Meaning, I need to talk, but I am losing my voice. Hahahahahaa completed!!!

(sigh)...

Nonetheless, I have this vibe that everything after this will be great. 2016 still have eleven months to pass. I just need to shake my self a bit in the early of 2016.

Dear February,
You are the shortest month in 2016, I hope you'd be a good transition to cure my lonely heart. Be busy, be meticulous, and be efficient. I hope my self will adjust this new situation. New year really means new year!. Everything is back to zero. What I have been through in 2015 is just left. It is a brand new year. I cannot carry out my habit in 2015, things need adjustment. Maybe because 2015 was ended too nicely. Started nicely as well. I was hoping that 2016 would be the same, but surprise is a surprise isn't it?  The solution for this situations is... I just need to start a new habit...
Anyhow, dear my self in February, please adapt well... you are living in present, not past. I know you can do it, you have been through the worst, so please chin up. Cheer up. Work things out. You are the handler of your own remote control. You can mute yourself doing nothing, or press play and rock and roll.

Dear February,
even if you might be gloomier, I will be prepared...
Let things go, let loose our self, and enjoy the ride don't we?

CVB

Currently

First currently post in 2016, and I am feeling kinda flop. Down. Murky water.
There's nothing wrong about my hair color nor my colleagues in the office. It is just so hormonal. Hahahaha. Oh well, to heat up things a bit, I want to list 3 things that currently calming me down.

1. a Current Playlist
Not a surprise that my playlist on ipod or youtube are all K-pop. Aha!
It is a compilation of old and new songs. K-indie or idol. Rock band or soul singer.
Well, One Candle by g.o.d is my ultimate favorite now. The songs were out in 2000. 16 years ago, yet it is still ear-catching!!! hahahaha I love the original recording, and determined to be able to sing the rap (yea right Chen!) Rock On!
It is a pleasant surprise or not, but I am bought by JYP newest girl group - TWICE with their single OOH-AHH. As usual Park Jin Young has an ability to make a very catchy sound (including that one candle song).
Next is coming from my mysterious discovery. I never known this singer before. I only saw her once or twice on shows. Her name is Park Ji Yeon, and I am lovin her single, Mr. Lee. Sassy and sexy video clip. Lovin it.
There are two OSTs are lingering near me. I can't go to bed without hearing them. One is from BUBBLEGUM sang by the romantic guy, ALEX from Clazziquai. It is sweeeeeeetttttt... too sweet. I am glad hearing him back! The other one is from Reply 1988 OST, the song is sang by December. December is a male duo, I knew DK, one of the members because of Immortal Songs 2. This particular song is super sleek. Swinging. It is really nice to listen to it when it is raining (oh chen... )

2. Re-watching HOTELIER! I am trying hard to move on from Misaeng, haha, thus, I am digging back to 2001 drama. I love the opening. The first episode wins everything. It was in 2001, but oh those acting, and long shot are gureeeeaaattt.

3. Impulsive walk and watch alone in the movie. It is the priviledge of solo living. Enjoying my single days I guess.

Ah... let's stay alive Chen... !!!!
This sounds too depressing already!!!
LOL



CVB

17 Days

It is 17 days after new year and yet, it has started as an odd beginning I must say.
Too much of weird things happened, like today. I am confessing to you that I was too-determined to skip going church. My excuses were I got nausea, my body temperature is rising again, I felt sick (like want to vomit), and it was raining. I did not want to take car at the office nor do I want to take a walk to church. Not to mention, bomb and shooting in Jakarta a few days ago, and our beloved Prof. Snape's death at the very same date.
I must add, everything that set as resolutions was going against my self. I am having a hard time controlling my appetite, not to mention hitting the pool or do mat exercise like I did in 2015. Bank account is hitting low whereas I am planning on a big travelling plan in the end of the year. Everyhing seems require more effort.It is a new beginning indeed. Like I am at a new level now (because my resolution was a bit of continuity of 2015).
It's been 17 days in the new year, but I start to feel... I somehow need to be 'stronger'.
I know it is just SEVENTEEN days in 2016, and I sound slightly defeated. But, really... I feel so weird. January started a bit weird anyway.

oh well...
It is just day 17 Chen, 2016 still has a long way to go. 349 days are awaiting. And, I do know that miracle happens, magic exists, good things are available, and happiness is around. I just need to do extra work to stay on track.

Ready to rock and roll in 2016!!!!

CVB

Awards of the Year

Ah, it is 2016 baby...

It can be called the first week of January 2016. I am like entering a new book. It's been just 6 days after that the last day in 2015, but on these 6 days, there have been too many unexpected things happened. Too many, a bit shocking. Not too much, but not only a day or two, each day has its own surprise. It made me thinking that "whoa... it's really A new year"
Nevertheless, I am really (really..really...really...really) GRATEFUL towards 2015. It answered everything even on the last days of 2015. Amazing eh? Therefore, I dedicated this very first post in 2016 to still talk about 2015. It is Rewards time!
I haven't done this in many many years, but I think there are stuff that highlight my 2015.
Let's dig in!

1. Food of the year - Mie ayam Rp 6000
I haven't eaten one particular menu for this many. I could eat this trice a week, because it was cheap and convenient if I forgot to bring food in the office. It is my so called comfort food if I did not cook.

2. Drink of the year - Nescafe coffee mix PAS Rp 1000 per sachet
If in 2014 was my Starbucks year, 2015 was my nescafe year. Again, it is cheap and easy. Plus, Malang doesn't have starbucks. It certainly does have good coffee, but it is just a bit wooshing around if I need to buy it. Nescafe was the answer.

3. Movie of the year - The Sounds of Music.
Yes baby. After visiting Von Trap lodge in April 2015, I couldn't help my self not to own the soundtrack and the movie, and I watched it every weekend (parts by parts of course). It is indeed the Classics!!!

4. Drama of the year - drumroll!!! MISAENG
In entire my 26 years old life, I have watched this freaking drama like I have re-watched The Sounds of Music. Not bored, and if I counted, it was 5 times already, not to mention how much I have watched one particular episode. Yes yes yes... I know you might be bored to hear about this, and I am totally fine if you don't like this drama, but.. ah I heart it..place it in the very special already. It is indeed my healing... I have done it many times. If I was feeling down, I watched an episode or two random episodes of Misaeng, and I could still laugh, cry, and felt warmth in my heart. That powerful.

5. Travel highlights of the year - US can be the strong one, tho Hongkong one was also a headline, but I chose Jakarta-Bogor trip was the highlight. It was my thanksgiving away, and you don't know how grateful I was for that particular trip. It seemed more magical than the US one I dare to say. Thanks to my seattle house gank and of course my super woman - Sara Lea. It was one amazing getaway.

6. Quotes of the year -
Travel far enough and you'll meet yourself. Can't explain more.

7. Singer of the year - Kwak Jin Eon is my sweetest discovery, but I can say that Kim feel is my hearthrob. Both are the first and runner up of Super Star K6 (Korean show) in 2014. I firstly fell in love with the deep voice of Kwak Jin Eon, but thanks to Immortal Songs 2, I could see the charming part of Kim Feel more. I am more excited to see if Kim Feel and Kwak Jin Eon are once again paired. Perhaps, I can see them on Immortal Songs 2 soon.

8. Song of the year - There were two actually, and both are involving Kwak Jin Eon and Kim Feel, but I think I chose "Don't Worry" more. It was originally sang by Ddeulgukhwa. I have heard it on Immortal songs 2 sang by Ali. Really caught by how Kwak Jin Eon and Kim Feel sang it, and then recently Lee Jeok sang it for 1988 OST. How many arrangements are made, they were all beautiful. And ... oh the lyrics... I love how it is not necessarily meant to be a love song.

9. Highlight of the year - I got promoted in June, moved to Malang, literally ALONE in a new city, no friend, no acquaintance. I survived, and am loving the city eventually. and... :) my papo got married again in Feb. No, it was not a sad story..I have known the person that he chose for a loooong time. I don't like to call her step mom... second mom is more a fit even though, I don't really like it either. But, she's been my second mom since I was very little. When my mambo was sick or couldn't be around, she would be the one who's with me. I wish the very best for the two ;)

10. Lesson of the year -
Be grateful of anything, anytime, even if you haven't got it. It was actually words from my very own papo. Say thank you for everything, everytime...
See things positively and ...

thank you for that...

CVB