Pertanyaan (menjelang) tengah malam

 Menjelang berakhirnya bulan November, tidak ada pikiran lain selain kesuntukkan.
Sangat kontras bukan?
Ya, setelah ini ujian yang sebenarnya.
3 bulan hanya pemanasan...
berikutnya adalah permainan yang sebenarnya...
Selamat datang Bulan Desember.
Aku punya banyak cerita tahun ini...
kira-kira apa yang akan kau berikan padaku Desember?
untuk merangkai rantai kisah mengenai 'perjalanan'



CVB

Within 2 months

 I can't believe myself that oneself can experience many things within 2 months. Just like me...
All the feelings are abruptly coming to me in a sec. Sad and happy in one minute, fear and excitement in one plate. What a weird way to express it, but it did really happen..
Within two months.. many people have been asking me whether I am enjoying my job.
I always hesitate to answer that particular question just because I am saying to myself  that it's too early to judge. It's only 2 months. I was coming at the highest peak of the year. School expos, fairs, trainings, work trips, I don't spend many times in the office. While the office work is more hectic and complicated, because the more you know the parents/students, the weirder things could be happened. haha.
Anyway, the reality is, I wake up every morning, or before I go to bed, I always say bluntly that "I like my job." ;)
But again, is it early to think like that? Because this is just the beginning. In January next year, maybe something else coming up, maybe changes are going to happen. Maybe next year, desperate is awaiting. Maybe, next year...
I don't know...
However, I should be grateful of whatever I've got in these two months. Weird cases, some nagging parents, enrollment, cancellation, work trips, loveable parents, snobby colleague, great manager, handsome representatives, cool Bandung, and amazing God I have, not to mention my super papo and my mambo (from up there) who have been supporting me in every way. Making me believe that I am doing alright. Plus, as a bonus, I got to meet Arina Mocca, my favorite band in Bandung on the way back to Surabaya. I was with my coworkers :D
As usual, I get used to find myself a bit different from other. We are all Indonesian, but it was only me who recognized her. Well, I was so excited in one plane with Mocca hahaha.. Only She that understood my feeling...
Hahaha...(psst: I've posted my picture with her on Facebook and instagram #sivibi)

Mocca, Indonesian band who is famously known in South Korea

Last night, I re-watched Princess Diaries 1. Yes the movie was 12 years ago.

one of the classics, Princess Diaries

While enjoying the movie, I caught one cool quote.
"Courage is not an absence of fear, but a way to go beyond the fear. Be cautious is Ok, but you never going anywhere..."
It is exactly what I do sense.
I feel fear, but I think it's silly if it stops me.
This is a real adventure... indeed.
Within two months, I could meet a lot of people and experienced a lot of things.
Just to say in the end that I am ... grateful...
At the same time, there are moments that I wish, I could still text with my mom or facebook-message Erin Walker. Both who could be the greatest help in what I am currently doing. Nevertheless ... "Everything happens for a reason, right?"

I am totally curious to see 'where I'd be' in the next 4 months...
What state I will be, how I will be handling things. How I will see conditions. What actions I will take...
Now, I am going to enjoy my cup of mocha and hop to another plane for a wedding in Makassar (this weekend)... :)
My Big bro is getting married, and be sure, his little sis will not miss it. 
And I will have time to recharge my courage by a long warm hug from my papo and hairy Echong-Gassing

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