I finished #100happydays 3 days ago.I iImpulsively decided to join in and on the very same day I had a bad day. However, it turned out I appreciated the meal that I had on that night and posted it as the first post of my #100happydays.
#100happydays is a non profit organization that invite people around the world to be happy. It says that many people now spend their 24 hours by not doing anything else but work work work. Also surrounded by negativity; whilst actually there are many small positive things that can make their day. By posting one picture that makes you happy, we are reminded by one small thing than can have power to turn our day to be a better one. At least, by the end of the day you will think of one positive thing to complete your post; even though, your day is full of sh*t.
Not every single day is a happy day. Not rare that I have to 'create' my happy picture. I usually put up memories that make me happy or inspiring quotes. However, there are more days that are genuinely happy. Small or big things. I am happy when I write, when I eat good food, when I meet friends and families, when I suddenly found a meal on my desk, when I see sun rise, when talk about something excitingly, when I watch a movie and shed happy tears and many many good memories. However, on the 100th day, I just know what makes me happiest is being born into my family. Being raised by them. Being present, now, at the very moment.
Passing day 50s, my days are more genuinely. Automatically, I will find or create a happy picture.I basically think or find one good thing to conclude my day. It makes me feel better. It is always a joy to post one picture a day, not a torture. It is voluntarily done, not forced. 100 days seem fly so fast. It is a bittersweet feeling when it comes to an end. So, I promise my self to continue posting whatever happens that make me happy.
We need happy feelings. Especially, I am a moody person, highly sensitive in certain times. Happy days are easy to create, memories, friends, strawberry juice, free food or simply a lively conversation.In the end, these posts are full of gratitude. Every single piece has its own reason to make me say grace. Basically,
When you live alone, things come out randomly, just like now. Suddenly thinking that there are many many things "I want..." It's like urge or something that pops out randomly. Or something that I miss the most. Reminiscing. Taste that I have had before. Places that I had memories. Things I used to do. Anything past tense. Or Something new; like shows that I haven't got a chance to see whilst I really want it badly. Learn somethings new. Totally random and out of the blue.
But, hey.. let me just do this for fun. Counting it as my "me time" and let me write them as my dream...
I put in 10 categories and narrow it down to top 3 things
2 minggu lagi, tahun 2013 akan mengucapkan salam perpisahan, dan kita akan disambut 2014 berikut segala kejutan-kejutannya.
Entah mengapa yang terpikir olehku sekarang bukan evaluasi, bukan juga resolusi, melainkan "daftar keinginan" yang mungkin lebih dikenal sebagai "Bucket List" .
Setelah mampir di blog kesukaanku Puty's Journal, daftarku menjadi semakin solid. Puty (blogger) bahkan membuat satu page sendiri berisikan daftar panjang "Bucket List"nya dan juga hal-hal yang sudah ia lakukan. Hal itu membuatku berpikir bahwa "sungguh akan sangat menyenangkan jika aku pun bisa mencoret satu persatu daftar panjang itu." Seakan-akan, aku menyelesaikan satu tugas demi satu tugas. Accomplishmentsounds so prestigious. Padahal tidak ada hadiah ketika menyelesaikan daftar itu. Hanya sebuah rasa puas bahwa "aku sudah menyelesaikannya"
Well, mungkin ini juga yang akan membumbui nasib kita, hidup kita, dan perjalanan itu sendiri. Proses.
Daftarku belum sepanjang Puty, hanya sebuah daftar pendek berisikan iming-iming seorang Chendani. Tak lebih.
Bucket List
1. 50 judul buku dalam 1 tahun
2. Java Jazz Festival
3. Perayaan Waisak di Borobudur
4. Leavesden studio trip, Warner Bross world of Harry Potter
5. Drinking butterbeer
6. Publish books/writings
7. Gets involve in a film making
8. Mengetahui ajaran Buddha
9. South Korea for a year.
10. learn photography
11. Hobitton
Daftar ini mungkin akan menjadi panjang. Mungkin akan terlupakan begitu saja. Namun, aku selalu bersemangat untuk menghadapi tahun baru. Apalagi kira-kira yang akan berlangsung di tahun 2014?
Tahun 2013 aku nobatkan sebagai "tahun perjalanan"
dan menulis bucket list ini adalah sebuah awal... ya sebuah awal perjalanan baru :)
Bukankah begitu? Sebelum aku mencoret satu item dalam daftar ini, aku akan berada dalam sebuah perjalanan, sebuah proses, untuk menyelesaikan satu item tersebut.
"Jika terlalu fokus sama tujuan, kita akan lupa sama perjalanan" - Abimanyu, film HELLO GOODBYE
New Moon New Light... when air is fresh so does one's mind...
Heart is purified with everything new...
New Calendar New Dew ...
Even the mosquito bites sound so crisp and never been so bothering...
Dream a little dream...
Muehe... pasti pada terheran-heran dengan opening dari postingan ini. Mungkin ada yang mikir "ini orang kenapa lagi?" hahahahaa
Engga tahu itu inspirasi dari mana and please... I don't even have a name for it hehehe... Yang pasti Bulan Juni terasa asyiiiik...
Me Life in 2012 is quiet funny... Jan was started roughly, February was pretty OKAY,
March was gloomy, and
April started to bloom... and then...
MAY was not really OKAY... Too many stuff to do... too many things happened in one time... mommy was not okay, my mind went wild, and I gained and lost weight interchangeably (mind my outrageous choice of words hehehe)
June oh June... I hope good things are coming trough... Let me drown myself into my gleaming dreams...where I am looking at Grotto in Portland, Seeing Seattle from Queen Ann, Eating Piroshky and other good stuff at Pike Place Market. Zipping a 16oz of Jamba Juice Very Berry at the Coffman Memorial Union, Eating roasted garlic ice cream at Sebastian Joe's, seeing Capital building at St. Paul, posing with Snoopy and friends at St. Paul park, attending mass at Newman Center. Or let me see myself on the streets of Seoul, eating street foods, shop till drop, blogging, and falling in love with everything about Dae Han Mingguk...
Let me still live in my dream where my fingers typing those words on my keyboard, and having sun shines trough the windows, let me do it with a companion of a hot chocolate at the side. Ah writing. I love the sound of keyboards when I typed. As much as I enjoyed putting my thoughts into words. Hopefully, I can get to do this more... more... and more... :)
I am still in my dream when I see slates, lighting, director chair, people running here and there, listening to some "action!" and "cut"... see my name on the credit as a script writer. And I see you... with little angels running around and throw themselves on my feet, hugging them like a sturdy teddy bear. ah dream a little dream... always gives sparks into life...
Now...
I only see my small fingers and my long trembling feet... alone they are so small... but strong enough to help me moving. reaching those dreams... yes indeed...
I believe that these might be coming true..
Long time a goooo when the song "So Young" and "Would you be happier" were booming, this 'once little girl' was hearing to a song titled "Haste to the Wedding" by the Corrs... she was dancing in her head on a huge stage. This might be around junior and high school years... 6 or 7 years ago... And then.. those pictures about this 'once little girl' sleeping in her head... and then... suddenly a friend of her asked her to dance for a big event in the history of Catholic Church in Makassar. Last June 2nd, our diocese celebrated 75th year of missions... I got three parts. Three of them were dancing. However, the last part, we were dancing to represent the modern days of the Church. and guess what! the song was "Haste to the Wedding" and it was a HUGE STAGE with 6000+++ pairs of eyes watching... lalalalalaaaa
It was a 2 minutes song, but I felt sooo thrilled! and excited! not nervous... it was a beautiful beautiful moment!
only a subtle desire when I pictured me dancing in my head...
it turned out to be a reality. a fact.
a supported content to say.. "yes.. Dreams do come true"
this whole dreaming theme excites me even more. attracts me like a magnet poles. Both positive and negative... hahaha...
STOP thinking!
Just do it!
but.... do it with a purified heart... no such greed will help. only a true desire and passion with no such cruel intention will do...
Happy Dreaming...
CVB
These are the glimpse of the celebration...
The Birthday Cake!!! needs 6 people to bring this hahaha
Oktober 2011 tanggal 3, saya melakukan perjalanan pulang. Perjalanan yang tidak mudah sama sekali. Diikuti oleh 3 sampai 5 bulan pertama yang penuh pergumulan. Mirip dengan ibu-ibu hamil, 3 bulan pertama adalah masa tersulit, dan mereka akan merayakan masuknya bulan ke-7 masa kandungan di mana mereka telah melewati masa tersulit dan tinggal menanti kelahiran sang buah hati :)
Saya tentunya bukan ibu-ibu hamil, saya hanya menyamakan diri dan situasi saya dengan para ibu-ibu hamil itu. Masuk bulan ke-7. Segalanya menjadi lebih teratur. Merayakan ulang tahun yang ke-23, merasakan kehadiran teman-teman yang benar-benar mulai peduli, membaur dan melebur dalam suatu komunitas, dan yang paling penting mulai merasakan tempat di dalam Gereja di sini.
Masih...
Saya masih banyak pertanyaan, dan masih harus memilih. Masih bergumul. Masih merasa insecure. Hanya saja, saya sudah tahu di mana kaki berpijak. Dan ingin melangkah lebih lanjut. Kata seorang yang saya temui, melalui kesaksian hidupnya yang membawanya ke noble goal setelah melakukan perjalanan selama 30 tahun, kami menyimpulkan (benar-benar menyimpulkan) bahwa kami semua dipersiapkan. Tidak ada yang kebetulan. Dan, saya merasa demikian. Detour yang saya lakukan ini, membuat puzzle-puzzle itu mulai terhubung.
Banyak kesempatan yang pada akhirnya saya dapatkan (ini akan saya post terpisah, jika benar-benar terealisasikan - in process). Saya juga banyak menemui orang, dan merasakan belajar banyak. Apalagi hal persepsi. Sepertinya itu menjadi tema pembelajaran selama akhir bulan April dan Mei.
Kali ini, saya memasuki pelajaran Penyerahan. Manusia itu sombong. Mereka hobi memikirkan kalau kekuaan mereka itu luar biasa, sampai lupa arti rahasia mencapai impian. Salah satu langkah awal yang paling penting setelah bermimpi adalah... p.e.n.y.e.r.a.h.a.n.
Menyerahkannya secara terbungkus rapi kepada Ia ... sang pemilik pabrik mimpi.
Selama 7 bulan ini, saya mengenali kekuatan-kekuatan dan kelemahan-kelemahan saya dengan lebih akrab. Mulai membaur dengan ritme ketukan jiwa saya yang sebentar-sebentar upbeat... dan sebentar-sebentar mellow. Selama 7 bulan ini saya sadar bahwa keluarga saya adalah orang-orang yang akan menerima saya apa adanya...Selama 7 bulan ini saya menemui cukup banyak hal asing yang membuat saya makin kaya. Selama 7 bulan ini saya melebur satu dalam komunitas.
Dalam 7 bulan saya telah menemukan tempat, dan mulai merajut benang yang satu dengan benang yang lain membuatnya menjadi satu kesatuan. Menjadi pakaian yang akhirnya akan saya pakai.
Sebuah tujuan akhir.
Terima kasih buat semuanya.
Terima kasih buat teman-teman di Amerika Serikat yang sudah pernah menerima saya...
Terima kasih buat teman-teman di Indonesia :) Terima kasih menerima saya kembali...
Before I jump into the main point of this post, I would like to welcome 2 new members of my "family" :)
After 3 weeks without a certainty, I finally got my own USB modem for me to get connected with the 'whole' world...
Please welcome, Albert Yossie Huwi Budhi
Rasa-rasanya legaa banget dan bebas banget. Selama ini tanpa internet, saya merasa pincang, nggak bebas. haha...
Don't ask me why I came out with such a name haha... nggak tahu kenapa, begitu mendapatkan "bayi" baru ini, langsung muncul nama Yossie di kepala. hahahaha... maklumi saja isi kepala saya ini...
yang kedua, let me introduce you Stroberi, my pink flexy (CDMA)
Baiklah, seturut dengan judulnya, saya ingin berbagi rahasia sedikit. Sebenarnya apa sih obsesi dari seorang Chendani ini...
nomor 1 yang paling utama - DANCING
Seperti mbak yang satu ini...
diculik dari tumblr.com
Om Shanti Om - picture from Google (forget where;... hahaha)
Tari-menari bukan hal baru. Dari umur 5 tahun saya dikursuskan menari balet oleh ibu saya hingga SMP dan jangan kira badan saya ramping-aduhai-bahenol gara-gara menari balet. Dari kecil badan saya sudah terbilang besar dan gempal. Namun, walaupun begitu, saya tetap menari dan sampai diangkat jadi asisten loh. SMA, saya dipercayai untuk menjadi instruktur. Itu yang membuat saya mencintai tari-menari. Bukan hanya balet saja, tarian tradisional pun menangkap perhatian saya, tapi sayangnya, saya tidak sempat mendapatkan pendidikan formal soal tarian tradisional. Untuk itu, saya niat, sebelum saya melepaskan kelajangan saya (baca: menikah), saya ingin belajar tarian jawa di Yogya, tarian Bali, dan Bollywood!! hahaha... seriously, I want to know how to dance like Sharukh Khan. Untuk sekarang, saya mau membekali diri saya dengan flexibilitas (physically), e.g. split, kayang, roll depan, de el el. Itu yang menjadi obsesi saya saat ini...
Oh satu lagi... my next goal
Yup, I want to learn how to dance this cute dance haha
Obsesi nomor 2 adalah - GOOD BrEAKFAST
As always been said, "The most important meal of the day is breakfast."
Smiliey Pancake - tumblr
Strawberry oatmeal - tumblr
Breakfast itu selalu menarik. Apalagi waktu selagi di Amerika. Orang-orang negeri itu sangat menggemari Breakfast, sampai saya pun ikut-ikutan senang dengan breakfast.Pisang, pancake, peanut butter, Hot Chocolate, omelette, hmmmm
Bayangkan, segelas kopi susu mengepul dari balik cangkir putih itu. hmm... aromanya meremajakan seluruh indra. Lidah dimanja dengan rasa segar dari buah tropis. Belum cukup sampai di situ, perut dihangatkan dengan semangkuk bubur ayam dari gerobak keliling... Ahh... hari itu akan menjadi hari yang indah- iming-iming sebelum tidur
Ini yang namanya cinta... :P
Obsesi nomor 3 adalah - Nice Working Place...
Tempat kerja itu adalah dapur kreativitas. Jadi, penting hukumnya untuk mempunyai tempat bekerja yang rapi, menarik, dan efficient.
dipinjam dari Tumblr.com
Ingin rasanya saya menulis membiarkan ide saya mengalir di tempat seperti itu ... :P
Obsesi nomor 4 - BathTub Inside the Bed room!!
Seperti ini...
Bathtub inside the bed room - tumblr.com
Alasannya absurd, seabsurd jawaban teman saya ketika ditanya ingin kamar tidur seperti apa. Dengan mata berbinar-binar dan tanpa ba-bi-bu, dia langsung menjawab mau punya 2 tempat tidur di dalam kamar dan menghadap ke kebun luas yang ada sapinya.... hahahaha
Yah, kadang-kadang absurditas lahir dari kreativitas (tanda tanya.....)
Obsesi nomor 5 - Seoul, Yogya, dan Amsterdam!!!
3 kota ini adalah kota tujuan teratas yang ingin saya kunjungi, tak segan-segan untuk menetap juga jika ada kesempatan. Mengapa?
Lagi-lagi alasan sepele...
Sebenarnya, obsesi saya kepada Seoul adalah lebih bertitik berat pada jajanannyaaaa...
picture from here, Korean street food DdukBokKi, goreng-gorengan, dan makanan tusuk.Memang dari dulu punya obsesi kecil untuk jalan-jalan sambil comot mencomot jajanan bersama teman alih-alih makan di restoran... ;)
Lalu mengapa Yogya ..
Selain karena ingin belajar menari, ada sesuatu yang memang istimewa dari kota Yogya. Yogya bagi saya adalah kota yang mencerminkan masa lalu, masa sekarang, dan masa depan. Yogya adalah rumah bagi candi yang berumur ratusan tahun. Banyak tradisi yang masih dijaga dan dibudidayakan. Itu sebabnya Yogya menjadi gambar projeksi masa lalu.
Yogya sebagai projeksi dari masa sekarang direpresentasi oleh kehadiran Sultan Hamengkubowono X. Beliau sebagai sultan dan juga politisi berusaha mempertahankan tradisi sekaligus mengikuti dinamika globalisasi. Ini membuat Yogya menjadi kota yang menyimpan seribu tradisi tetapi tetap menjadi kota yang tidak ketinggalan jaman.
"Yogya Kota Pelajar" sudah sangat akrab di telinga kita. Mahasiswa-mahasiswa inilah yang menjadi projeksi masa depan dari kota Yogya. Pelajar di perguruan tinggi ini adalah harapan bangsa. Jadilah mereka melengkapi Yogyakarta.
Dan Amsterdam...
Sebenarnya, kota yang ingin saya kunjungi itu Zoetermeer, tapi karena Amsterdam lebih dikenal, jadilah Amsterdam menjadi tumbal. hahaha. Tapi, pada intinya, saya memang sangat ingin mengunjungi negeri bekas penjajah Indonesia itu. Sebabnya adalah karena di situ saya bisa ketemu dengan makhluk2 lucuu iniiiiii
...
Aku ingin suatu pagi nanti ketika aku bangun pagi, aku akan menikmati secangkir kopi susu sambil melihat kanal-kanal Amsterdam yang bermandi cahaya matahari.
Aku ingin di suatu malam yang dingin, aku bisa menghangatkan diri di tenda makanan pinggir jalanan Seoul yang ramai.
Aku ingin di suatu sore nanti, dengan tanpa alas kaki aku akan menari ditemani gamelan dengan semilir angin sore Yogyakarta
Aku ingin suatu hari nanti, aku dapat menikmati musik diiringi orchestra, saxophone, dan suara-suara penyanyi favoritku di ibu kota.
dan aku berharap, ini bukan hanya mimpi...
Izinkan aku berkelana menembus batas-batas harafiah...
Menengok jalanan yang masih panjang di sana
Menanti para pengelana...
ya... kawan... hidup ini masih panjang....
Alright, straight to the point! I am potter lover. Potterholic! And yes, my email was chendani_potter@doramail.com hahahahahahahahahahaha
that's for a good laugh.
oh dear...
Today and two days ago I randomly watched the movies back. Perhaps, because of the upcoming finale is most anticipated!!!!
LOL
Anyway, of course... it's normal if a big fan would happily imagine if someday an owl will drop a letter to the front door with Hogwarts seal on the back and it says that s/he is accepted in Howarts Witchcraft and Wizardry. I am one of them hahahhahaa.
Immediately without any further consideration, I would fly to London get a room in Leaky Cauldron and study the life of magic before I get into the school. haha.
I wonder how much money that my mom will put in the Gringots and perhaps during the stays, my mom would definitely try every single flavor of Florean Fortescue Ice Cream.
Then, when I finally got into Hogwarts, the sorting head ceremony would make me anxious and excited at the same time. I shall not lie that I would definitely happily be in the Gryffindor House. Not because of all the main characters were from the particular house. It's just simply based on personal character. Meanwhile, I also have a Hufflepuff spirit which is live happily and quietly. hahaha. But naa... as an Arian, I am an adventurous one so I personally think that sorting head would shout Gryffindor but who knows... (wish the sorting head really exsists hahaha) It is just amazing to know your own character.
Psst: University of Minnesota color is gold and maroon HAHAHAHA... and yes it has tunnels... :P
Alright back to Hogwarts.
I am honestly not really excited to join the quidditch team, but I personally think beater and keeper are cool! (and yes, I am a big fan of Oliver Wood and The Weasley beaters hehehe). I prefer to take Lee Jordan's job as the commentator LOL.
School without being active in an organization is not really fun hehehe. I will join Professor Flitwick's choir or orchestra haha and the DUMBLEDORE's Army!! hahaha. Furthermore, I don't mind if I become one of the Prefeks.
About classes, I think I would get bored easily in Herbology. I would find Transfiguration and Ancient Rune are interesting, but at the same time I would have a hard time in those classes. haha. Defence Against the Dark Arts would be my top of priority if it's still taught by Professor Lupin. :). As an elective, I would think of either Ancient Rune and also Arithmancy, although both would give me a hard time. hahaha. Nevertheless, both sound so interesting. Arithmancy is predicting a future by numbers. Ancient Rune is an ancient language. The ultimate favorite, of course, would be Charms. Who is not excited learning Charms. It's like the key point why we want to be a Wizard. Cooking, washing, decorating, anything we do by cast charms. if I get a chance to learn Patronus Charm - I think my patronus will be a BEAR. A BIG POLAR BEAR hahaha.
To be frank, I can't tell what I want to be in the future. Auror sounds too high. Politics - Ministry of Magic sounds too complicated. Teacher? maybe. I think I'd be happy if I have to live in Hogwarts, but having a family is still the first choice. HAHAHA. So, maybe a career outside the school. Daily prophet reporter perhaps? or Writer.
AND! If I have a chance to have a little romance experience, I definitely love to be with either Fred or George hahahahaha... ahhh they are too adorable and witty to be left out.
My Pet will be Hippogriff.. I agree with Hagrid this time, they look adorable. Gracious and arrogant, but simply gentle if I can get their respect. Though, having a phoenix will be AWESOME but yes I know my place as a mere "young wizard" haha.
The most magical thing that I desire (other than the wand of course) is Pensieve! I have an issue with memories. I always long to be back in time when I can see the scenes of particular memories once again. haha. Isn't it cool to be in the scene as the third person watching yourself experiencing one particular set?
hahahaha.... I think I get a fever. Harry Potter fever. Magic world fever.
Thank you J.K. Rowling, you have created one of the incredible imaginations that one can think of. :) And because of that, you keep person's creativity alive. Imagine your magical world is one of the amazing experiences. I thank you for that.
