Despite the saying "we are ourselves" or "be yourself" is written in every inch of our room, there might be a time when the adjective called "insecurity" is coming like a virus. Nowhere to be seen, but it feels stronger time by time. In short, we are going, voluntarily or not, to be just like somebody else.
In life, the line between positive and negative is very thin. So thin until it can be seen as two sides. Too positive sometimes leads us to be something that is too negative. For instance, I was trying to find inspirations to motivate me to keep going... but, in the end, I just tried soo hard to be like them... to be someone else. I forgot who I am... what are my abilities, I only focused on my weaknesses. I was trying to compete in every way to be better... I don't respect myself. I felt like I am worse than anybody else. Feeling rejected in one particular matter... Not having a boyfriend yet is one of the factors... Stupid eh?
Yes, this adjective or may I call virus called "insecurity" is infected me as well... infecting my brain till I am feeling like a moron. In the end, I am doing something not sincerely. Doing something in order to be "seen". Ah... that's it... :)
I am telling you how stupid I am hahahahha...
Well, accepting it is one of the ways to be smarter..
though, I cannot guarantee that I will not be in this kind of situation, but at least I can be more aware...
So here I am...
Happy or not... "Sipit", tall, a single daughter, a daddy girl, have a mother who has been fighting against illness, not too "this" not too "that", a Catholic, a Chinese - Indonesian
This is me...
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